What is a hippie?

I belong to several hippie group lists and was reading some of the hippie yuppie email from the list and was a bit put off by what was said. Yes, yuppies like to pretend they are hippies.

OK, so what is a hippie or what is supposed to be a hippie. Most people would say a hippie is zonked out on drugs, living off of welfare and is a pretty useless item in society. So, if thats not a hippie, what then is a hippie.

I guess one would say that a hippie is one that lives off the land or rather lives in a companionship relationship with Mother Earth. A person who has a spiritual connection to Mother Earth or the Universe and accepts their duties as a caretaker of Mother Earth and All it entails.

To be continued. . . .

I done did it!!! Now what do I do.

Well I decided I had to stay sober, no more drinking. OK, that is cool, my friend, Lee, died from drinking last July. I still can't figure out why he gave up living so easily. I was here for him and he knew it, but he just couldn't follow through with it. Maybe it was his time to leave Mother Earth and maybe I should just accept that and move on. Deal with it, God Damn It!!!

So I quit drinking and had been a month and three quarters without a drink. So went over to the X's for Christmas Dinner and she gave me some wine at dinner. So that shouldn't count, at least it didn't count as far as I was concerned.

When I talked to my buddy, she said it did count and I had to start all over again. She said maybe I wasn't really ready to quit and maybe I'm not ready. But I don't want to be like Lee was either. So like Lee would have done, I went out to the liquor store and got a bunch of stuff. Damn them. So now I have the house half full of booze again. Put on some more weight, so now have to do something about the weight.

So, now it's back to no booze and dieting, I hate having this extra weight. But this time am not giving up the booze, I may even go out and get some beer to drink. I hear that can be pretty slimming.

Somehow I fear I am back on square one again.

I'll be Damned

I was cruising around the Internet and discovered that Steve Allen the TV personality of a long time ago was also a Capricorn like me. It just kind of freaked me out.

Calling all Geeks

Yesterday decided to cleanup up my PC, get rid of all that junk software and give my PC a general tuneup. OK, so here is how it went down. After eliminating all the extra files, found I had less that 5 percent free space, so I went the distance making backup CDs so my data could be off loaded.

Still only 7 percent free space. I needed 15 percent for the defrag program to run properly. So, I reluctantly decide to compress the volume. Several hours later we have everything compressed.

So OK, we can defrag, so I thought. Well, we did anyway. It completed it and said it left some stuff still fragmented. OK, I can live with that. But this morning when I booted PC up, the screen resolution was terrible.

After all it wasn't so terrible, I reloaded the video driver and all was almost normal again. Sometimes it doesn't pay to be too thorough when it comes to fine tuning PCs.

Suddenly Last Summer

I have been reviewing and updating and revising my life. I read a post in this blog. It just says way too much about me, it also talks of our forgotten friendship. I wanted to delete it from existence. Not that I can delete you from my presence though that is what you attempted to do to me.

I guess I am going to keep it, though deleting it would be much easier. I will keep it because I thought we were friends. Friends do not betray each other. Friends are true to each other no matter what. Friends are friends eternally. I know whatever was, was and is gone from existence. Maybe it never existed. Was I such a fool as to be tricked in such a way.

Dark thoughts run rampant through me, I desire to raise the Sword of Truth against thee, compel you to spill the Truth out upon the blood drenched ground. The ground is crimson with suitors blood, how many does it take to satisfy. Is this but a game you play. A hand without truth. Motives without reason. So, be it.

Is this the way it will be. So it is. I trust a Power greater than I, will see Justice done here. So mote it be.

This is Hell

OK, it's been awhile since I posted anything here. I am debating how much should be an open book and how much should remain private. One thing is for sure, I have to be more private than in the past.

For a quick update, I have quit smoking. It will be 28 weeks or 7 months on Friday, January 13, 2007. Because of this, I have put back on the 25 pounds I worked so hard to get rid of last year. But all in all, quitting smoking has been a good thing. I am holding onto that thought, because am now having trouble with Hypoglycemic or low blood sugar issues now. That means that if I think I am having a problem at any one moment, I have to eat to avoid a crash and one has to wait 20 minutes for the result, so one never knows when to or not to eat. Although sometimes it's better to eat than to crash. But now, having excess weight, I need to lose it to help with this new problem. I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't. The wonders of modern medical science. They are so blessed with all the answers.

For the next great wonder of the universe. Off and on for the last 6 months, I have also quit drinking for one of many reasons. There have been quite a few infractions, not the least of which is having a small portion of wine on Christmas Day, negates all the positive work I did over the last six months. I have to reluctantly agree with this, but I couldn't argue with this rational. So now I have to start over again. January 23rd will be 30 days, so I can once again get the 30 day mark.