Well I decided I had to stay sober, no more drinking. OK, that is cool, my friend, Lee, died from drinking last July. I still can't figure out why he gave up living so easily. I was here for him and he knew it, but he just couldn't follow through with it. Maybe it was his time to leave Mother Earth and maybe I should just accept that and move on. Deal with it, God Damn It!!!
So I quit drinking and had been a month and three quarters without a drink. So went over to the X's for Christmas Dinner and she gave me some wine at dinner. So that shouldn't count, at least it didn't count as far as I was concerned.
When I talked to my buddy, she said it did count and I had to start all over again. She said maybe I wasn't really ready to quit and maybe I'm not ready. But I don't want to be like Lee was either. So like Lee would have done, I went out to the liquor store and got a bunch of stuff. Damn them. So now I have the house half full of booze again. Put on some more weight, so now have to do something about the weight.
So, now it's back to no booze and dieting, I hate having this extra weight. But this time am not giving up the booze, I may even go out and get some beer to drink. I hear that can be pretty slimming.
Somehow I fear I am back on square one again.
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