This is Hell

OK, it's been awhile since I posted anything here. I am debating how much should be an open book and how much should remain private. One thing is for sure, I have to be more private than in the past.

For a quick update, I have quit smoking. It will be 28 weeks or 7 months on Friday, January 13, 2007. Because of this, I have put back on the 25 pounds I worked so hard to get rid of last year. But all in all, quitting smoking has been a good thing. I am holding onto that thought, because am now having trouble with Hypoglycemic or low blood sugar issues now. That means that if I think I am having a problem at any one moment, I have to eat to avoid a crash and one has to wait 20 minutes for the result, so one never knows when to or not to eat. Although sometimes it's better to eat than to crash. But now, having excess weight, I need to lose it to help with this new problem. I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't. The wonders of modern medical science. They are so blessed with all the answers.

For the next great wonder of the universe. Off and on for the last 6 months, I have also quit drinking for one of many reasons. There have been quite a few infractions, not the least of which is having a small portion of wine on Christmas Day, negates all the positive work I did over the last six months. I have to reluctantly agree with this, but I couldn't argue with this rational. So now I have to start over again. January 23rd will be 30 days, so I can once again get the 30 day mark.